i find it quite funny that i am old enough to vote for the leader of the free world, take a bullet for my country, and buy pornography, yet when i accidently slip the f-bomb in a debate round, i am disqualified. first, i would like to say that if i had been alerted that my language was offensive, i would have promptly appologized; i think everyone who knows me is aware that i take special caution to ensure i do not offend anyone who is around me. to be honest, i was not even aware i had dropped it until nick's brother told me after the debate. sometimes when you are speaking at a quick rate, under pressure in the heat of a debate round, the first word that comes out of your mouth is not always the best word. it was dumb, sure, but it certainly was not malicious. anyone who knows me knows that i have an immense respect and love for this activity, and to be honest i am somewhat offended that after four years of dedicating a significant part of my life to the oklahoma debate community, changing the style and manner in which i find debate most enjoyable, i am rewarded with a disqualification. have i ever broken the rules? no. did either of these two people ever judge me before, see unsavory behavior, or have reason to believe that i would do something to intentionally disrespect the activity? no. sure, i broke the rules, but it seems that these two people might evaluate the context of the situation and purse a different course of action. i also find it the language ms. danner used after the debate a bit disconserting. she indicated to us that had nick apologized at some time in the 2AR....at least 15 min after the initial incident...that it would have been okay and, also, that part of her reason for pursuing the protest was my "cavalier" attitude after the debate. mind you that no one told us what was going on; i had no idea a. that i had said "objectionable" language or b. my language was under protest. so, to answer all of the people who claim their actions were just out of the sake of the rules, you are not correct; their action, at least ms. danner's, was meant to personally punish us for percieved behavior. it is comical that that my reading of the phrase "blood thirsty cave-men" (in the terrorist demonizing evidence andy refered to) in a slow and deliberate manner, solicited no objection. had i replaced 'fucked' with 'screwed' or 'jacked', i assume there would have been no reprecussion, even though the words mean the exact same thing. i have a feeling that if one of the debaters had refered to an argument they thought was stupid as 'gay', there would have been no reprucussion. to me, the word fuck is empowing. in the gay community 'fuck' is a word of pride and freedom; you are encouraged to use it to express yourself, release your hostility, your joy, or simply to say it because it is just a goddamn word. but, i apologize to bible toting mr. bowser and ms. danner if they were offended; i had no way of knowing that 'fuck' caused them deep personal offense, just as they probably didn't know that their censoring of my use of 'fuck' is deeply offensive to me. but, i suppose that is why i engage in a political communication based activity, to exchange ideas and learn. but it seems that amongst the thousands of words i used in that debate, only one mattered. during the protest, nick and i were not allowed to address the committee or given a chance to retract our behavior. blake, one of the judges of the debate, was also not allowed to enter this sacred meeting. i am curious to why they even held a meeting. did you also know that oral prompting is considered a violation of ossaa ethics? jenks was not disqualified for this action - why the selective application of the rules? it is also against the rule for a judge to read evidence or deliberate over his or her decision for more than five minutes - that is a rule every judge has probably never followed in one instance or another, and did so without reprucussion. but whatever, this incident is reflective of the whole oklahoma debate circuit. the hh squad has recieved more criticism about how we dress, how we speak, and how we act than about how we debate. i have learned and gained so much from my debate experience, and whether i had been speaking while lying down naked droping the f-bomb or standing up in a prom dress using only 'pure' language - i would have reaped the same benefits. i am glad to say that i am done with oklahoma high school debate, and am entering the college debate community in which they value argument and excellence. let me say a quick thank you to jimmy, blake, nick, carson, and andy for letting me cry on their shoulder, and also let me say to all of those who will still be participating in oklahoma debate - you are not the problem, debate, have fun, strive to be the best debaters you can be, but work on the adults who claim to master this activity. my rant has now concluded. peace, love.